| wow, its been a while. i hope everyone is doing magnificent! a lots happened since january 30th. the bands back up at the mix, i finally got my first valentine and hit it off with him :0), ive mastered the stick shift (rough yes, but officially drove on roads), ive started writing music again, ive gotten to go to buckner and sort shoes for orphans, ive given away my last puppy, ive read sparknotes completely for the first time (not proud, but did it), ive discovered the good sides of anger, ive branched out among friends, ive had some major heartaches in areas of life, ive had some major heart medings in areas of life, ive finally learned how to play "emaline" on the keys (almost done workin the kinks), ive shut doors in life only to find several windows open, ive learned how to cook a few meals and wash clothes and do dishes (amazing! :-O lol), ive been a careful rebel (nothing extravagant, no worries, its me for petes sake), ive had my first kiss, yada yada yada
all that stuff is grand and fun and good in life. but i wind up asking myself.
is there something more?
and i think inside of us, that burning question is rising. whether things are amazing, good, or complete crap, all of us are yearning for that something more. and we get so caught up in the "firsts" of life, in the lessons, in the excitement, the drama, the pain, the craziness.... that we forget the simplicity.
you know the simplicity im talking about. the kind you long for when you wake up. the "wow god everything is glorious because youre here. now im gonna start my day." kidna feeling. and the only way i believe we can get that refreshing innovative comfort is to let go of life. let go of the things that are tying you down or even building you up. both help in life, but the thing that helps us the most i really believe is surrending everything. for when you give yourself and everything along with you to christ? life will be ten times better. ten times more fun and exciting. the pain may be ten times worse but the joy that comes with the morning will be ten times more glorious. so i challenge myself and all of you to appreciate life, absolutely. but to let god determine where he wants everything to fall into place. when he determines the who when where what and why of your life... its so much better.
thats just been on my mind, the whole "submit yourself to the lord" kinda thing. and i need to. its a grand thing it really is. your burdens will feel as light as feathers. jesus take the wheel. farewell friends, i love you all. lets go have some coffee sometime. |
as for now,
